THINKING TODAY

In March 2005

Thinking today of things many years ago

Of what I wanted to be and where I wanted to go

I only wanted peace without fears and a life free of dreads

But how could I rest and not be afraid

Many times....I have called out God's name

In constant fear I stayed

Everything I learned was from experience in life

Couldn't find much good for me in the world

It seems nothing was there for me

This little girl walked down some very dark lanes

There's no way I ever want to back track

or go there again

I'm now just wanting to move forward...not back

I love to see progress in all I do

Keep my busy Lord...Sometimes I redo

But with any project I take on

I give it may all til it looks like a song

I wondered back then how could I survive

So many times, I was afraid...The Lord knows how much I cried

Now that I am older in years

and have that so wanted peace

The dreams I had were all halted, but look around now please

I've been so blessed but still restless at times

Can't sleep well at night and it takes me off my line

Lord, I'm trying to find the right words

To say what I have in my heart

The Lords tell me now, I won't have to restart

Just to linger around and take it smooth

Listen to Him carefully and obey His rules

There are many things that were not said

But thoughts are spinning in my head

I am forgetting, forgiving and have a blessed life

But don't think there will be a next time of the same old

Will say no more...so fill up the in-betweens

The Joy is so great

I'll probably never have dreams again

But who needs them

I have a new life now, walking with

the Lord Jesus Christ

I love Him and I love this life

Of peace and comfort

Thank You Jesus

September 6, 2005